A human without memories is nothing but a souless body.
supposed to feel relax during holiday but ended up thinking more than i should. I really have no idea if its a gain to know too much, but constantly pretending as if you have no idea what is going on. Perhaps, I really have no idea what is going on, and I am hoping this way too. Its like living in a world shielded by mirrors. maybe shielded is a wrong word for it but i guess you should understand my words. To be born as the 3rd party. to understand what is going on but never had a chance to participate. I've tried breaking the glasses but no, it doesn't work. My hands are bleeding more than they should already. Maybe i will be happier alone? I have no idea too.
They are jealous for i have the chance to go overseas, but they never realised i wasn't even enjoying. How can i enjoy myself when they aren't? I don't want to be the only one happy. The people aren't right. Its the people you go with, not the place. And they will never understandjus
just some thoughts above, which i am sure most of you won't be interested in. Dont' bother changing back into english then. Just wanted to type them out. Just needed a place to jot down those little feelings.