When you lose something you really love, and then regret for not appreciating them only after they are gone. Before you rant that you want something out of your life/ commit suicide, please rethink. Is this what you really want? For them to go missing, for your life from then on without them. I'm sorry, time won't turn back for you no matter how much tear is shed. The pain when someone so dear to you disappear is ____. Out of control.
Stay strong, darling. Sun will shine after the rain.