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Monday, October 25
teach me how to feel @ 10:37:00 PM
some people claim that they are better off dead.
Others hope that they never existed.
Too bad, I'm too tired to decide which group i really belong to.
So I chose to belong to the group called ' I am reborn everyday'
Yeap, it rained today so theres no 'announcement' before the assembly. Thank you duabeigong, guanyinniangniang plus so many deities who helped me so much so that i can be safely promoted. I am so super grateful to all of you. haha, although i failed my gp, again. Mrs lawrence please don't see this okays? haha, i still want to be the legend. (:
Its quite funny walking down the corridor with so much tear, happiness or sadness. Some calling back to inform their parents that they're safely promoted, others comforting their friend whom, for whatever reasons, broke into tears. LOL, and i was like practically screaming at yoga. Probably the only person who inform her friend first without even calling her parents first. Don't think they really care - as some of you may have known how onzz my parents are. Anyway, thanks yoga for hearing me rant again. Guess I paiseh myself again by screaming in pure chinese at yoga when everybody was just talking softly to their parents in perfect english. haha!
I AM VERY PROUD OF THE FACT TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK IN FLUENT CHINESE OKAYS!
scream + rant + speak loads of chinese without thinking + talk to band 3 ppl whose angmoh is as powderful as mine = feel so much better already!
haha, this doesn't sound much like a compliment but it is okay yoga! XIE XIE NI! *although i'm praying hard that you don't see this else will yaya me again* Guess some of my classmates were quite stunned by the way i behave in front of ppl i'm very comfortable with. ^^
okay nvm. I guess i'm just jaded. oh well, shan't complain too much. You (whoever reading this) must have your own problems so i shall not add on to it by sharing so much.
On the way down the canteen, people were just anticipating that i'll cry. I mean, I'm really quite alright. To say that i'm not at all affected would be a lie, but to say that I'm so affected that I'll cry in front of you guys is just quite impossible. Guess its my character that i only cry in front of selected people. So if i ever cried in front of you - be proud- cause you're special. Cry as in those laugh till cry type is not counted. Back to gp, so its really quite weird when they keep asking me to cry if i feel like it, and not hide my feelings. So as usual, I'll go -.-. haha, I know you guys are just trying to cheer me up, but i guess the best way, as what P sms-ed me, is just to walk beside me and remain silent. If I want to share with you something, I will. If I don't, I won't. Unless you really understand my silence, you won't understand my words (OMG, xl i finally understand it now!) But really thanks so much for the thoughts, for being just there to want to offer your help. (: Its my problem, not yours.
haha, A just sms me to tell me the things I told her last time, and continue insisting that she is not a les. Glad that you remember it but I'm strong enough to handle this myself. (: I am, and will be stronger than what you think i am.
oh well, don't know if i should type this out but, I guess you really disappoint me sometimes. Expected though. And i'm trying very hard not to flee away from you.