why cun things just get simpler?? or rather, why cun i simplify my thoughts?? learning how to let go isn't as easy as it sounds, but i'will try my best to do so.. even if no one believes in me, i will still try.. fighting is really tough and i wouldnever want to go through that pain again.. if things just wun go my way, then fine, its my turn to accept it.. so many things went through me these few days.. quoted form gabriel, ' its never over, until its really over'.. which i thought was true.. everything will past, even when you are at your worst.. i noe it may seem impossible for me to say this, but thanks for leaving me and showing me what you really want.. push me down the cliff before i climb any higher.. i am turning into a monster ,a self-centred bitch, a whatever now i noe.. but i will try to change, no matter you believe it anot, no matter you support it anot, i will continue finding the smiley weishan back someday, somewhere within the imperfect me, somehow..