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Sometimes, we give spiteful remarks to others not so much for putting down others. I think we meant those hurtful words as a warning signal to others, telling them that we are hurting inside and hopefully, somebody will pick those hints up. Sometimes, those spiteful remarks we say are really meant for ourselves. 

It is okay to not be perfect.

Isn't it amazing how we tend to show our vulnerable side to certain people? Somehow, the tears just flow naturally and honest feelings just start to sprout out no matter how hard we tried to control them. No matter how hard we tried to smile, somehow, they can just see through everything and know that it is not alright. Perhaps it is the trust. Perhaps it is the sense of getting protected. Perhaps it is knowing each other well enough that we no longer have to play pretend.

Funny how everyone is fighting a war of their own but still choose to show the happy side to the world. Because we dont want to burden others with our nonsense, because we dont feel significant enough even when the thoughts are consuming every single part of us. Because we just want to appear stronger than we actually are. Because we are afraid about the consequences of appearing to be flawed to the world. And as a result, everyone suffers together silently. But love, know that you dont have to be alone in this.

The truth is, it takes a lot of courage to verbalise your fears and sufferings, because many might be suffering from the same thing and if we could all share our experience and thoughts together, if we could support each other through our experience, perhaps we will all grow stronger this way.

At the end of the day, we still have to learn to love ourselves a little more. To accept all out little flaws and still believe that we are beautiful.

This week, I am thankful that I am well-protected, and I am thankful that there are people I want to protect.