and then i realised that this world is full of crap, esp humans.. rubbish creatures that shdn't exist.. and that includes me too.. i can finally understand how it was like last time- this feeling of unknown and everything else.. for a moment, i feel betrayed.. tired and just plain tired and nothing else.. mayb self-centred would be a better word? you use the word 'big-hearted'.. i rather not be so, because neither am i so. my antitode is my poison, so why drink it in the first place, when the ending would be the same.