It's true.

I think I am getting old.

Having quite a bit of menopause mood recently. Even when I am given something, I feel that it is out of pity instead of true recognition. Like a consolation prize, like "you are not good enough but thanks for your participation so here's a small token of appreciation". And the truth is that I know I am really not good enough. As in this really shouldn't be a post to condemn myself and its really unhealthy to think this way because frankly speaking, I am truly grateful for the chance. It's been something I've been aiming for and I did it, although its via connection more than capability. Oh well, perhaps I am thinking too much into it. Should just stop being such an ass and complain when I am already so lucky to get it. Shall just work hard to proof myself right?

Alright, all the negativity ends at this post and when tomorrow starts, it's gonna be a brand new day!! Learn from the past, but look towards the future. I am worthy. Even if I am currently not as capable, I will improve. Here's to a better us! (:(:

Anyway, heres a song to accompany me through the late nights. Hope it accompanies yours too!



I am not fearless. But I will conquer my fears and insecurities, one step at a time. We are given a life because we are strong enough to live it. And what's life without challenges? I will brave you strongly and properly, so there's no need to run. I will brave and accept you.

Always do what you are afraid to do.

On a sidenote, I thinking D trip 2 might be coming!! :D:D Excited much. Scared, but still excited much.